Hidden words of love

don't have any idea of things
don't know even the feeling of it
don't know how to utter a word
don't know how to explain it

i was dumb, an idiot that i haven't seen things
it was not a statement it's a fact;
but i was blind,and depth about it
keep hiding it along the way

now it has an ending would i regret it?
or accept the fact that i have thrown away
everything that is important to me because of one thing that defeated me "fear"

afraid of everything, a selfish act
that I've done in my life
a very stupid thing that may change everything
which have left me no choice but to accept it

I don't hate myself cause it was
destined to be like this; that it has
a purpose to have a better life
and now i know not expressing his self
to the world is like hell.

experiencing it makes me human
i could tell its hard but worthwhile
loving someone is not a sin but a path to a better life.